Emotional Hunger.

So I left off last nights blog with a sense of hopelessness.
While I have always known this, It just seems I need to be reminded of it continually, tonight during worship we sang the song, Hungry. I realized once again, I am just hungry for our Lords love, I deprive myself of something I love so much, something that brings me joy and happiness, something so refreshing, the only thing that keeps me sane.
If only I could remember to surrender the emotions I dont know how to deal with to the Lord, and let Him deal with them, doing this will allow me to live freely, to love and be loved!


Hungry, I come to you
For I know You satisfy
I am empty, but I know
Your love does not run dry

So I wait for you
So I wait for You

I’m falling on my knees
Offering all of me

Jesus, You’re all this heart is living for

Broken, I run to You
For Your arms are open wide
I am weary, but I know
Your touch restores my life

So I wait for you
So I wait for You

I’m falling on my knees
Offering all of me
Jesus, You’re all this heart is living for

Emotionless

At times I find my self with the feelings and emotions of a robot, nonexistent!
I tend to put up a wall and block anything from coming in and anything from going out, I believe this to be a defense mechanism. Ever since I was little I have always been uncomfortable letting people know how I feel, what I am thinking, what scares me, and even what excites me. I have become really good at being a brick wall and not letting people see past the look on my face. I have gotten so good at it at times I even have myself fooled. I start to become angry and cold, I distance myself from everyone that is anyone to me. I just want to find a reason to cry and empty my emotional tank.

What Do I Want?

I want to be a mystery, yet be known
I want to be together, yet alone
Is it too much to ask, To be famous yet unknown?
To be a wanderer, yet have a home?
My insecurity makes me sick,
Yet my confidence makes me thick
Can I be harmless, yet grip the stick,
Be completely smooth yet have a nick?
Can I live in a lie, yet be true
Can I be unique, yet so like you?
Have no control, yet know what to do?
Can I be ugly, yet beautiful too?
Answer me, I need your help,
Can you help me or someone else?
I need your help, can't you see,
Are you even listening to me?

by: Kara Douglas